Trying to be patient....

Well-I thought for sure I would have had Chase by now!! I am not late-still have 6 days to go to my due date but it feels like I am late-I had expectations to be about 2 weeks early since I was about 10 days early with Natalie so it feels like an eternity. Next pregnancy I think I will have learned to not count on my past pregnancies for what I should expect-lets hope I least. I have been trying to keep busy and spent a lot of time trying to get this baby out-been going out for walks with little spurts of a jog here and there, acupressure, sex-I even tried something called nipple stimulation-pulled out my pump and pumped the other day because its supposed to release oxytocin-well I read today that for it to be effective it needs to be done for like 6 hours a day for like a week-you can forget that!!! I will have enough stimulation to my nipples when he arrives! I know that I just need to let him come out on his own time (unless he hangs out too long in there). The doctors keep presenting inducement to me and I scheduled one for the 12th-but after more consideration-I think I am going to cancel it. It's been a hard decision for me because it would be convenient to be able to plan ahead like that and Steven is disappointed that I am leaning towards canceling it but ultimately this is my body and my decision. I have heard both positive and negative stories with inducement but for some reason my heart isn't settled with proceeding with it. So that's that and I am pretty certain Monday I will call and cancel-now if he hangs out in there too long-I will definitely reconsider.

Natalie has been keeping me busy-now that I am home I am keeping her in underwear/naked...I tried the pull ups today because they were Dora and she really wanted them-but if she is wearing a diaper she thinks its ok to pee/poop even though she is able to verbalize not to. So I hate that she is so old and not potty trained and am really going to work on it keeping her diaper free all the time (except for nighttime) once Chase has arrived and things have settled just a bit. Funny story--With this wicked cough that I have had for over a month now and the baby on my bladder-continence has been an issue for me-so I either have to change clothes a lot or wear a pad to help protect myself-well Natalie calls this my diaper. Today she came into the bathroom and looked in my underwear and said, "Mommy where is your diaper?" I thought it was pretty funny-Steven thought that I was sending her the wrong message about potty training-not much I can do about it though. Natalie has gotten back into playing with her dolls again-she didn't want much to do with them for at least 6 months. Now she likes to line them up and read to them, calls them by their names now-it used to be a coverall Abby, and her baby Jessica has recently become the troublemaker kicking the other babies and she sends Jessica over to me for disciplining-she gets a big kick out of this.

Not much new in other news-I have signed Natalie up for preschool starting in August next year-can't believe she is old enough for that now-she'll be in school now for at least 15 years. I think it will be really beneficial to her though especially on a social standpoint. I had plans to do little lessons with her a couple times a week until then but haven't been successful in carrying through with it. She knows almost all of her capital letters and when we are driving down the road points out the letters she sees, is able to count objects-though sometimes she still uses nine for the number three-and knows all her colors/shapes etc. She even was able to point out a hexagon to me the other day! It's 3 am here-had a spout of sleeplessness and am hoping to get back to sleep-haven't been sleeping great. Hope you all enjoy the 60 degree day again today-I know we will!